On Writing: Summer Heat, Thunderstorms, and Absent Muses

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Hi, Dear Reader. I’m off to a late start with this post – a later start than I would have liked – so I apologize in advance for the lateness of this blog post. I didn’t oversleep and wake up at noon, nor did I go out to run errands or for that matter, to have any kind of fun, either solo or with friends. I slept normally, rose at the usual time window of between 6:30 and 7:00 AM, and I didn’t have any disturbing dreams about Vicky, Vladimir Putin, or Pennywise the Dancing Clown.

Hell, I even had my usual cup of café con leche. And a packet of Quaker Instant Oatmeal, to boot.

I am having a tough time with my writing, though. This is my third attempt to create a post for A Certain Point of View, Too since this morning. The first post got to the three-paragraph mark before I read it, reconsidered the topic and – especially – the tone, and scrapped it.

The second attempt didn’t quite get that far. After working for 45 minutes on it and noticing it wasn’t flowing, it, too, got the Ctrl-Alt-Delete treatment. Again, neither the subject matter nor authorial voice seemed “right,” so, goodbye, Blog Post Draft #2.  

Anyway, as I sit here late on a Tuesday afternoon at the tail end of August, I notice that we are having a “typical Florida summer weather” day. It was sunny and brutally hot for most of the daylight hours, and now, while it’s still hot outside, it’s so dark outside that I had to turn my lamp on to see my keyboard and thus avoid making too many typos. There’s also thunder in the not-so-far distance, so I will have to log off my computer soon and go read out in the living room for a while.

I usually don’t have this much of a hard time when it comes to blogging. With other writing projects or genres, such as screenplays or prose fiction, yeah; it seems that my environment and emotional state both play roles in whether I can work on something from start to finish or not. When I’m content and at peace with my immediate surroundings, I am optimistic, full of ideas (whether they’re good, bad, or meh is a matter of debate), and positively productive. Heck, back in 2019 I came up with the idea for a screenplay – a short one, mind you – while I was taking a shower.

In 2022? Not so much.

Sure, I can and do come up with one, sometimes even two blog posts in one day, and according to WordPress, I have been writing at least one post per day for 775 consecutive days, including the post you are reading.  That’s over two years’ worth of writing without even a one-day vacation. It takes a ton of self-discipline, but it’s also part of the daily routine, and since it’s a low-to-no-stakes “project” in the grander scheme of things, I can do it.

Other than that, though…

I lack focus. I procrastinate – a lot.  And even on days when I am feeling “creative,” ideas come to me at odd hours of the day, then vanish – POOF! – as soon as I sit down at my desk and boot up my PC. Or I’ll start on something with a modicum of enthusiasm that if it were turned into a packet of taco sauce, it would be labeled “MILD,” then run out of creative steam before I’ve written the beginning of a chapter in a novel or the start of a script’s opening sequences.

Heck, even movie reviews, which I have been writing since I was 17, are not as easy for me to produce as regularly as they used to be.

Writing seems to be So. Fucking. Hard.

I mean, when it takes three tries to produce a “simple” blog post, that means my writer’s mojo is running low and close to Empty.

Thank goodness that I’m not a huge fan of booze, because if I were one, I’d be hitting the bottle so hard that Ernest Hemingway’s ghost would be appalled.  

I need, at the very least, a Muse to inspire me.

Right now, I’ll settle for one good day when I am content, at peace with myself and my surroundings, and my creative mojo is back near Full.

Published by Alex Diaz-Granados

Alex Diaz-Granados (1963- ) began writing movie reviews as a staff writer and Entertainment Editor for his high school newspaper in the early 1980s and was the Diversions editor for Miami-Dade Community College, South Campus' student newspaper for one semester. Using his experiences in those publications, Alex has been raving and ranting about the movies online since 2003 at various web sites, including Amazon, Ciao and Epinions. In addition to writing reviews, Alex has written or co-written three films ("A Simple Ad," "Clown 345," and "Ronnie and the Pursuit of the Elusive Bliss") for actor-director Juan Carlos Hernandez. You can find his reviews and essays on his blogs, A Certain Point of View and A Certain Point of View, Too.

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